I had high hopes to be a fabulous blogging momma. I would maintain these blogs with humorous daily quips about life as a new mom. It took me about 1 month of parenting before I realized that I was putting a huge amount of pressure on myself, and ultimately my family, to maintain this type of hobby.

Long before Abby, I would see my mommy friends struggle to maintain scrapbooks of their little ones growing up. Many times they couldn’t afford the materials you needed to complete the task…and none of them could afford the time.  But, they did it, regardless, because that’s just what a “good” mom did.

I have come to realize that blogging is the new scrap booking. Mommies set out to document their life and times, to vent, to share, to whatever. But, just like scrap booking, it can quickly become another competition that we women seem to unconsciously enter into throughout the course of our lives. Often times, when I open up my blog reader, I get the same feeling I did when I would open up my new issues of Martha Stewart: I will never be good enough.

Wow…is this why I started blogging? To show the world that I am better than the next woman at making my family look perfect? I had a very close friend admit to me that she saw “all the things” I was doing with my little one on our family blog, and felt that she was inadequate..first because she doesn’t maintain a blog, and secondly, because she doesn’t “do enough”. Ouch…

Making my close friends feel inadequate is the LAST THING I wanted to do with my posts, and I have begun to question why it is that I do what I do.

There is a thought that has run through my head a lot lately: “Beware of blogging Mommies who post multiple times a day.” OK, so that might sound a little dramatic. Let me rephrase:

“Beware: If THIS blogging mommy is posting everyday, she is probably avoiding doing something that REALLY matters, like dealing with the issues that she CAN’T blog about.

Vent done.